I'd Like to Walk to Lake Ontario.
Johan
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This will be, without argument, the most depressing Halloween ever. I'll leave it at that. Elaboration will only lead to a self-pity party.

I looked in the mirror yesterday- really looked, I mean. It scared the shit out of me. I look like I just got out of a death camp. I'm not making a joke, either. Going home might lead to my parents forbidding me from returning to school- it's that bad. This situation doesn't make any sense because I'm eating more than ever- case in point, my dinner two nights ago consisted of an entire chicken. I'm loath to go the University Health Services because- well- they notoriously suck. But really, what is happening? Ugh.

Saturday is a guest roda at the capoeira academy in another part of the city- I think I'm going to go. My teacher invited me, which implies that he thinks I'm good enough to participate. I really love capoeira and I intend to join the academy if all goes well (AKA I stay in Rochester). It's really incredible how much better I've gotten at gymnastics in general in just the space of two months. If you'd told me in September that I could do hundreds of cartwheels and walk around on my hands, *skepticism  skepticism skepticism*. Ironically the fact that I'm lighter makes me a lot faster. That still doesn't make it a good thing, though. 

Still haven't found any more anime worth watching. The Higurashi no Naku koro ni manga surprised me, though- at first glance I REALLY didn't like the art style (and I can be so picky about that) but the story took my mind off of it. My favorite so far is the Onisarashi-hen portion. It makes me want to get my hands on the game sometime.

Next week I'll officially declare my major (Neuroscience) and probably a Chinese minor, too. It's a milestone of sorts- I'm waiting to tell my mother so that she'll be surprised and subsequently delay the bragging to all my relatives.
    A point that irks me: I don't throw my determination around lightly. Yet for some reason any advisor/fellow student I speak to seems to disregard my ambitions by assuming I have delusions of grandeur or something of that ilk. I must make it clear: I am not declaring this major just because I think it sounds cool. My reasons are my own, but rest assured that I am damn serious about what I do and will not compromise for anything less than perfection. The end.
       ....I sense an ulcer in my future.

My Own Brand of Hikikomori
Johan
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It's hard to believe it's nearing late October already. Today I sat still long enough to actually absorb that fact (but only because my coffee was really hot and I couldn't walk whilst drinking it). What's funny is that all I've done since coming to this school is work, eat, sleep, and occasionally go food shopping. I still don't have friends here; my antisocial gene took over and turned me into a hermit. But I don't mind. Should that worry me? 

Lately I get the feeling that my parents at last woke up and smelt the coffee, as the saying goes. They at last understood that I am, in fact, severely allergic to youthful recreation and interaction and not simply trying to put on a "well behaved child" facade. I can't help but wonder if this disappoints them- knowing I won't be the typical young person parents are taught to expect. The adults in my life tell me to go out and have fun, enjoy my youth, but I don't want to waste my time acting like a fool and doing things I find stupid. 
    I guess I'm too serious. 

New manga: I tried reading Tomie, since pretty much everything by Junji Ito proves deliciously disturbing, but I just couldn't get into it (and didn't really like the art style). Oh well.
    My current reading is Alive-The Final Evolution, which is very interesting. It's reminiscent of Parasyte, but in my opinion much better. It comes with my recommendation.

I'm loath to admit that I haven't kept up with FMA: Brotherhood. I couldn't get past the first few episodes, which were basically inferior remakes of original FMA episodes. I understand the necessity of explaining the backstory, but the first series did it so well that these episodes were just painful to watch. I'll try to pick it up again, if only because the manga plot merits it (and some scenes I'm dying to see animated), but no promises. 

Still a month until I can visit home. It appears I may never again spend a Halloween with my family. What a depressing thought.
   


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peinnn
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I'm going to try to start drawing again. I did some doodles recently and found out that even though I haven't drawn in a long time I've still improved (it doesn't really make sense, but I'm not complaining). So maybe I'll bust out the tablet one of these weekends.

I recently watched the anime Monster and fell in love with it. I wasn't expecting a great ending (because generally the rule is that any totally awesome and mindblowing series will have a comparatively crappy finale) but those last two minutes hit me like a brick to the face. After I regained consciousness the deal was sealed- best. Anime. Ever. I'm in that moratorium phase where I'm looking for the next series to get into, but nothing can approach the level of Monster thus far. It's probably a safe bet to expect some Johan doodles in the near future. 
    Pretty man + totally fucked in the head= WIN.
                 And that is a mathmatical law.

Sudden urge for cheap dollar store tea. Later.

The Fun Fact Post
Johan
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They're all quite strange.


Hot sauce goes on everything. Especially eggs. I'm pretty sure my receptors for chemical burns/abrasions are well burnt from existence with many thanks due to our friend capsaicin. Now I can eat a habanero pepper and not even need a drink. Will there be dire consequences? (I'm thinking spontaneous cerebral bleeding, intestinal mutiny, etc) Perhaps. But there is not going back.

Mayonnaise is the enemy, followed closely by butter. Also bread. I wonder why people (Americans especially) possess a ubiquitous conviction that hating bread is a crime. I say it in restaurants among friends and all of a sudden it's as if my third head sprung from my spine and made a socially inappropriate face. (My second head is par for the course by now.)

Do not ever ask me to dance. Do not assume that I ever will. No matter how much sugar/caffeine/alcohol is involved, it won't happen. Sorry. And no, I'm not holding anything back or repressing some deep need to flail around like a hormonal intoxicant. Apparently that gland was replaced by a black abyss sometime during my fourth month.

At any given time that I am wearing shoes, I am also wearing three socks.

I have a profound dislike for Crocs. I find them appallingly ugly and cannot find any point of aesthetic merit in them. Sorry.

Tea, water, coffee, and milk are the only things I drink.

I have a nasty scar on my neck from when my throat was nearly ripped out by the prong of an anchor. And a rusty anchor, at that.

A day without gym training is not a day at all.

My eyes are too big for the rest of my face. They are also blue.

Last semester I spent quite an amount of three AM's in the 24 hour computer lab playing Left 4 Dead on the cinema screen Macs. Fund the youths' education! Support our universities!

Were I male, my name would be Brett.



I'm tired now.
 

 


Sometimes I would give anything to talk like Gilbert Gottfried
oldboy
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Haven't been here in a while. Business is as usual (read: chaotic); I'm transferring colleges to the University of Rochester which is where I should have gone in the first place. Flipping coins isn't the best way to make life decisions.

This weekend apparently I'm going to Anime Next (or whatever it's called). I just found out yesterday whereupon a friend I haven't seen in a while asked me if I would like to go. Although I'm dressing as Johnny (a la JTHM) I can't really say I'm cosplaying since all I'm doing is spiking my hair higher than usual, painting blood spatter on my face, and carrying a plastic axe. (Any assumptions you make about my physical appearance based on that statement are probably true.)

My amazingly exciting summer consists of going to the gym every morning, (followed up by crawling back to my car and stuffing Twizzlers into my mouth in a sad attempt to prevent the blood sugar crash) reading and eating. Occasionally I walk to the food store when I run out of pears. All in all, a thrilling experience.

Due to my failure to attain the Freshman 15 (or even the Freshman 1), my parents took me to the doctor again. Apparently doctors in America are not equipped to answer the question of "why won't you get fat?" You know you're an anachronism (or an all-out freak, let's not be fancy) when your doctor's advice to you is to "eat more crap". I paraphrased that.

So I had to promise my dad I would eat more chocolate shakes or something. Even though I hate them. Oh well. Coffee with some milk kind of counts as a chocolate shake. I say it's close enough.

I miss the good times in college. There's really nowhere else where you can just let your random fly out and everybody digs it. Like sitting out on the sidewalk outside a friend's apartment with another friend and suddenly remarking (with powerful conviction, it was the closest thing to an epiphany I've ever had) that dammit, I would give ANYTHING to talk like Gilbert Gottfried.

...I mean, think about it. It makes perfect sense. Really. A voice like that could get you anywhere. I would talk to myself all day just to hear it.



 

 


April 1st
peinnn
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My plans to get an XBox 360 were thwarted again. But as I threw $150 out the window on a housing deposit for a school I most likely won't attend next semester, I realized that I hardly ever have time to play video games anyway.

The first day of April and apparently the weather got the memo. It's raining incessantly, a fact bemoaned by many, but I personally enjoy it. Rain makes my head feel clean.

Sakura Matsuri is this weekend. We're performing Soran there.

Lately I've cut out fanart in favor of anatomy study. I can't tell if it's doing me good, since I haven't begun anything new since I started, but it can only help, really. At the same time lots of questions come up, mostly concerning the fact that this whole hobby is a waste of time since obviously art will not get me anywhere. Artistic inclination generally doesn't help biochemistry majors.

Too bad.

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It's been rough. My strange optimism-through-pessimism is deteriorating back into crap.

Day by day things just make less and less sense. 

At a loss.
Absurdity is not funny )




The first real self portrait I've ever done. Probably the last, too.

Today I Rode the Garbage Train and Visited Broken Dreams.
ed
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With Disregard I Thought Them Dead Until I Heard the Screams.





I spent the day throwing furniture out a second story window. It was the best therapy I've ever had.






Drawn for a friend.



Who says office hours aren't productive? And before I am eviscerated, you should know: the Comedian's shoulder-things are backwards because I'm an anarchist. FIGHT THE POWER. Actually I just wanted to make him look really retarded. Perhaps I should have left in that bottle of bourbon in his hand.

Tiny Rorschach is mine.



Mundane Update
Johan
[info]status_serrated

CURRENT EVENTS:

Spring break is unspeakably boring so far. My caffeine withdrawal went on for two days before I caved and jittered erratically into Dunkin Donuts.

I went and saw Watchmen on March 6th with my friends. (Side note: playing the Dark Knight soundtrack in the car makes even the most mundane grocery trip heart poundingly EPIC.) I went in expecting a lot to be lost in translation (because GN's and movies are like apples and oranges, contrary to popular belief) so it wasn't a letdown. I did have some issues with timing and omission of scenes (and awkward sex was awkward, GOD) but overall I enjoyed myself.  Probably my biggest concern was that the character of Rorschach would be off, but I needn't have worried. Jackie Earle Haley. Hot damn.  He pretty much made up for most of the shortcomings.

Sakura Matsuri in DC is coming up really fast. My Japanese club is going and I'll actually get to perform with our soran team, so it's big news. I'm looking forward to that.

I have to get up in six hours to go throw furniture out a second story window, so... truncation justified. Peace.

 


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