This will be, without argument, the most depressing Halloween ever. I'll leave it at that. Elaboration will only lead to a self-pity party.
I looked in the mirror yesterday- really looked, I mean. It scared the shit out of me. I look like I just got out of a death camp. I'm not making a joke, either. Going home might lead to my parents forbidding me from returning to school- it's that bad. This situation doesn't make any sense because I'm eating more than ever- case in point, my dinner two nights ago consisted of an entire chicken. I'm loath to go the University Health Services because- well- they notoriously suck. But really, what is happening? Ugh.
Saturday is a guest roda at the capoeira academy in another part of the city- I think I'm going to go. My teacher invited me, which implies that he thinks I'm good enough to participate. I really love capoeira and I intend to join the academy if all goes well (AKA I stay in Rochester). It's really incredible how much better I've gotten at gymnastics in general in just the space of two months. If you'd told me in September that I could do hundreds of cartwheels and walk around on my hands, *skepticism skepticism skepticism*. Ironically the fact that I'm lighter makes me a lot faster.
Still haven't found any more anime worth watching. The Higurashi no Naku koro ni manga surprised me, though- at first glance I REALLY didn't like the art style (and I can be so picky about that) but the story took my mind off of it. My favorite so far is the Onisarashi-hen portion. It makes me want to get my hands on the game sometime.
Next week I'll officially declare my major (Neuroscience) and probably a Chinese minor, too. It's a milestone of sorts- I'm waiting to tell my mother so that she'll be surprised
A point that irks me: I don't throw my determination around lightly. Yet for some reason any advisor/fellow student I speak to seems to disregard my ambitions by assuming I have delusions of grandeur or something of that ilk. I must make it clear: I am not declaring this major just because I think it sounds cool. My reasons are my own, but rest assured that I am damn serious about what I do and will not compromise for anything less than perfection. The end.
....I sense an ulcer in my future.




